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November 07 summer??? what summer??? i didn't see a summer...somehow five months have flown by. i can't believe it! i can't even figure out what i was doing all that time! well...i can probably recall a few things... june was spent working a lot, skydiving here and there, running away from the world to lay on the hot sand while the ocean lapped my toes with her salty wetness, and chilling in new smyrna beach, sipping cold beers while the pelicans soar above and perch regally on barnacle-encrusted wooden posts. i travelled back to texas for Jericia and Brett's wedding in july. of course, there were many margaritas and much wine involved; but more importantly, families gathered and the sun broke through the rain-laden clouds to see Jericia and Brett join their lives and their families together. it was a perfectly lovely ceremony; and rightly so, because these two are perfectly perfect together! their boys were absolutely precious in their little tuxes. we stayed up into the night dancing away on the floor (i even stole the mic when the dj went AWOL and busted out my own rendition of "maniac" at Jericia's dad's request), then moved up to the hotel room to eat cake, drink more, and grow sleepy in the deepening joy of the fading day. july also brought a visit from my neice, Kaylee, who came down to florida from alaska for a church youth convention. i stole her for a day and took her to my favorite artsy coffee shop in winter park, to Crealde School of Art where i do lots of modeling - and where anyone can bask in the peacefulness of the sculpture garden or see what grand show they have hanging in the gallery (we did both!). we walked up and down orlando's park avenue, ducking into far-too expensive clothing boutiques, winding through art galleries (BELTS!) and paused for ice cream when the sky broke open into a crashing thunderstorm. i took her shopping at a funky pop culture store full of cool things that fifteen-year-olds (or thirty-five-year-olds, as the case may be) find interesting. it was so much fun hanging out with her and catching up. she is such a beautiful young woman! as promised in my last blog, i made my trip to alaska at the end of august! it was stellar, spectacular, and superb! Becky and her family are absolutely wonderful. they live in a gorgeous house in eagle river, just north of anchorage. the beauty of the mountains there truly took my breath away. we enjoyed mexican food (that's alaskan fare, right?), good seafood (now THAT'S alaskan!), pizza with reindeer meat, and lots of great microbrew beer!!! do these people know me, or what? Becky and i did two fantastic hikes - the first at their local nature center. this hike actually reminded me a lot of several areas in the gunks back in new york *homesick* but held its own beauty. the air was filled with mist that made the leaves glow green drenched in moisture. we wound up and down rocky trails until we reached dew lake where we paused to breathe it in...then turned back into the myriad mushrooms and made our way back. we paused on the walkways over the marsh to watch the bright pink salmon swim and splash and play; she practically had to drag me away - the view of the mountains was so stunning with the clouds dancing all about their peaks... the second hike was a larger undertaking - turnagain arm up toward suicide peaks. altogether we spent six hours on this one; somehow it seems like so much more of it was uphill than down! it began in a forested area, the path twisting and turning around trees while giving us glorious views of the water and mountains as we climbed higher and higher. i was ahead of her, chatting away, blah blah blahing about i don't even know what, when i came around a turn and right in front of me was a moose! although it was a young one, it was still massive and strong and very formidable! i stopped dead in my tracks and whispered, "Becky...look!." she instructed me to move very slowly backward - which seemed to appease the creature - and when we were safely crouching behind a fallen log, she said, "now it's ok to take pictures." once we worked our way around his great mooseness, the forest cleared and great open expanses of land stretched out ahead of us (we were still going uphill). the huge rocky mountains loomed up to our left and patches of low scruffy brush were smeared about the land. we saw tiny white dots perched up on the mountaintops and officially declared them to be dall sheep...you just have to trust us on that one our trail took us in to a vast valley flanked by towering mountains ahead of us, while the purple mountain majesties we'd just passed stood regally behind us. i didn't know which way to look...the beauty was overwhelming in every direction! after a valiant attempt to climb as high as we could which was thwarted somewhat by lots of loose and very small rocks, we turned around and headed home. back on the road which flanks turnagain arm, we noticed that many people had pulled over and were looking at something in the water. because we are followers, and nosey, we did the same. and a good thing it was!! a pod of beluga whales was swimming by. after living in alaska for a year and a half, this was Becky's first sighting of belugas...i managed a moose AND belugas (and white dall sheep dots) all in one day! what a lucky girl i am! i also got to spend time with my brother-in-law Todd, my neices Kaylee (about whom you have previously read) and Kyra, and my nephew Jake. we watched movies and silly videos, we went to the alaska state fair, we laughed when i made Kaylee spit milk all over the kitchen (sorry for the squiggly bits, Kaylee). i had an incredible time...and as always...when it was time to return to florida....i didn't want to go. after seeing the mountains in germany, i knew in my heart that i needed to live near mountains for my soul to be full. after alaska, that feeling was only reinforced. i am NOT unhappy in florida. i DO NOT regret moving here. i've had some fantastic times and met some truly great people. but this will never feel like home. my mind was made up months ago that i have to leave here. i've tossed around the ideas of germany, northern california, texas, north carolina...and now boulder...but we'll get to that in a minute. somewhere around the middle of july, i noticed that my kitty cat was getting a little bit round in the middle. yes...she was out whoring around and got knocked up (i DO realize it's my fault for not getting her spayed sooner). it was actually fun watching her grow and get all fat and round, feeding her things full of protein and calcium which gave her really stinky poo. the morning after my birthday i came home and was greeted by her at the door, as usual, but i thought it looked as though one side of her giant stomach was somewhat flatter. she turned around to walk away and i saw blood on her leg. at this point she had aready given birth to one little calico sausage and one completely black sausage. while i was getting ready for work, i watched her pop out a second calico sausage; and when i brought people over from work to see (what a mean mama i am!) she had added a third calico sausage to the mix. it has been absolute joy and joyness watching these four little critters grow - seeing their eyes open, hearing their first little mews, watching them out of their box and running around the trailer for the first time, turning from little sausages into bratwursts...now they are eight weeks old and into EVERYTHING! but they are SOOOOOOOOOO precious!!! their personalities are so distinct and entertaining - i laugh like a moron watching them pouncing all ove each other, wrestling and jumping about...and then my heart melts when they are all curled up asleep next to me. alas, i must find homes for them, for i am not yet ready to become the crazy cat lady. i definitely need a bigger house for that! back to boulder... every august/september my sister Jo and her husband have a gargantuan summer fest party at their house. i was unable to attend again but a friend whom we have both known since high school days showed up. he was updating her on what the old gang we used to hang out with back in north dakota was up to and made mention of Troy Omafray. i have always adored Troy. we all lived in minneapolis while i was married, so i saw him from time to time then. after my divorce and move to new york, we talked and emailed for a while, but i literally had not seen him for something like ten years - and hadn't even spoken to him for somewhere around five. i looked him up online - he's living in boulder, teaching writing and yoga and studying Tibetan Buddhism at Naropa University. i sent him a message, he sent one back, we started talking on the phone and decided it would be good to see each other again. what do you know? i just happened to have some frequent flyer miles sitting there and there was one solitary weekend in october where we both had no conflicts. so i flew to boulder! you know this is not really so terribly strange a thing for me to do... i cannot begin to tell you how much FUN we had that weekend! it was CRAZY! AMAZING! INSANE! i had rented a car and somehow ended up with a PT cruiser CONVERTIBLE! he drove me up into the mountains for breakfast and then out onto the plains to look back at the mountains. we cruised up and down the mountains with the top down, rocking out to old 80's metal songs. we went to a party some people at his writing center were having, but got bored so we kidnapped two of his friends, brought them back to his house, built a fire in the backyard, and he started playing old 80's metal songs on his guitar while i sang away. when his friends got scared, we took them back to the party and drove up the mountain to sit between the sparkling stars and the christmas-light maze of boulder. we went on a glorious hike where wheezing in the thin air made my lungs want to bleed; but it was all worth it when we reached the rocky peak high above the flatirons and sat overlooking the town far below in the clean air, warm sun, and many ladybugs. he and his roommates threw a dinner party for a friend of theirs so Troy and i took over the kitchen, drinking much wine, doing stupid yoga poses, cooking away until a fabulous feast was sitting on the table and we all drunkenly dug in. the last night that i was there, he, his roommate Cory, and i all went out to a cool little brewpub for dinner. it had been significantly colder that day, so we had put the top back up on the cruiser. however, after a few beers and looking at the clear night sky, i decided it would be a great idea to put the top down. we can just crank the heat! poor Cory in the back started to get cold, so i offered him the passenger seat in the front where i was sitting...then i could just sit on his lap! Troy kept repeating, "we are so getting arrested....we are so getting arrested..." the radio stations in boulder leave everything to be desired, so we stopped back at the house for Troy's ipod. he also grabbed warmer garb for himself, and emerged from the house with a big fuzzy blanket which he wrapped around me. we resumed our positions: Troy behind the wheel, Cory in the passenger seat, me on Cory's lap with my legs stretched out into Troy's. we cruised up the side of the mountain, Pantera and Rage Against the Maching blaring from the stereo, all rocking out like idiots, laughing our faces off!!! the moon glowed with giggles up above us and we didn't even care when it started to snow... we paused briefly at the lookout to sing Jeff Buckley songs and returned to the house filled with giddy excitement and loving life. more than once while i was there, Troy mused, "you should move to boulder." the more i think about it, the more i like that idea. i hadn't really considered it until now because i'm a spoiled baby and haven't had to endure a cold winter for years; but that town has incredible energy, gorgeous mountains, a drop zone just to the east, denver just to the southeast, loads of artistic people and free thinkers, open and contemplative minds which i struggle to find here in central florida. granted, nothing is set in stone yet. i will stay to enjoy the warm sun, sands, and skies of the sunshine state for the winter and into the spring and will start making concrete decisions after the new year. in the meantime, i'm going back to boulder for thanksgiving . when two people have that much fun in the kitchen together, they really are obligated to host orphan holidays for their friends who have nowhere to go! by that time i will have made my 600th skydive (about time!!! and i still can't hold a head down). i will be in north dakota with my family for christmas and as far as i can tell right now, at a florida drop zone for new year's eve. once i have secured my destination and time frame on moving in the spring, something i would really, really, really like to do is to go spend about 3-4 weeks in new york. i'm WWAAAAYYYY past due for a visit, and at that time, i'd have enough freedom to spend time in the city, spend time upstate, see skydiver friends, actor friends, artist friends, skydive, hike, even work! so i'll see what i need to do to make that happen. i wonder how my kitty would fare making a trip like that? hmmm.... i am feeling so good in the essence of my being right now. not just one of those fleeting moments of joy and clarity, but truly good about my place in the universe and really excited for what is to come - whatever that may be! embrace your true selves and acknowledge their beauty. celebrate this moment - and this one - and this one - because they are gone before you realize what they hold. the dice are always rolling...witness the everchangingness of everything you know - including yourself - and know that you will always be changing and IT IS GOOOOOODDDDDDDD!!!!!! feel the love. love yourself. spiral out...keep going... June 01 is it just me?or do other people in this world have this much randomness occur in two months????? as far as my living situation is/was concerned, mr. very nice skydiver who agreed that it would be a great idea for me to stay in his trailer for the summer up and disappeared without saying a word. in the week or so before this happened, he was not around much, but i would see his truck here and there - i left phone messages checking that everything was ok, i even left notes on his trailer asking him to call me to sort out all the details. however, i wandered out of my tree-engulfed tent haven one morning to find that he had hitched up the trailer and everything was gone. needless to say, i wasn't exactly pleased. i began considering my options, as the heat and humidity of summer were creeping toward us and i knew i didn't have too much time. i put my name on the waiting list for a slot in aforementioned little trailer park off to the side of skydive deland and began trailer hunting. i recalled that my girl, Kim - in new york - had a trailer at one time and i knew that she wasn't living in it at the time...so i inquired, and i won! she had been trying to sell it, but to no avail - and told me that she and her new hubby would bring it down for me, and that i could just take over payments on it and live in it as long as i like. WHO HAS THE GREATEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD?????!?!?!?!?! ME ME ME ME ME ME ME!!!!!!!!!! so aside from the brilliant fact that they brought down my new home for me just after a slot opened up, i got to catch up with an absolutely beautiful human being and her wonderful husband. the trailer is far more than i actually need (recall...i had been living in a tent...) but i am exceedingly comfortable in here - and have set up my tent in my yard as a screened-in-outdoorsy-lounge area. the other denizens of the park have actually been known to come hang out in my tent when i'm not even home! must be the christmas lights... i got the fabulous news that my bestest friend in the world is getting married in july. she lives in houston at the moment, and has been back and forth from texas to nebraska to texas over the past few years. we were coming up on nearly three years since we had last seen each other and had been thinking for some time that this fact was absolutely unacceptable. mind you, i WILL be in her wedding, but i had some other feelings on the matter. i called her and said, "i know that i will see you at your wedding, but you'll have lots of people there demanding your time and attention...and i feel like being selfish and having you all to myself." she wholeheartedly agreed - and we figured that cinco de mayo is the perfect weekend to spend in texas! once i knew this was going to happen, i also knew that i couldn't be in texas without seeing my sweet baby, Joey (you will see him in previous entries from the time that he lived in boston). he's now working at a tattoo shop in dallas, so i decided to fly into dallas, spend a day with Joey, then take the bus down to houston to see Jericia. i met up with Joey, his boss and his boss's fiancé when i arrived in dallas. we hit a very cool oyster pub, ate great food, did LOTS of shots and drank LOTS of beer, danced around like fools and laughed and laughed and laughed! the next day Joey and i had mexican food and margaritas for lunch (yes!) and spent the afternoon hanging around the shop where he works. around the middle of the afternoon, we headed toward downtown where i was going to catch the bus to Houston. we didn’t plan on the traffic being what it was…soooooo….i missed the bus (oops!). i called Jericia to let her know, and she – being the most awesomest friend in the universe – said, “why don’t Brett (her fiancé) and i come up to get you?” WHO HAS BETTER FRIENDS THAN ME??!?!?!?!?! NOBODY!!!! so they showed up, we had some drinks, ate some food, had some more drinks, played some pool, had some more drinks (except Brett, who was very responsible and knew he had to drive back to houston! THANKS BRETT!!!), and eventually i said my farewell to my baby and we hit the road. the next day was cinco de mayo – so naturally, we went to del pueblo for breakfast and margaritas. we then went to Jericia’s son’s t-ball game. these boys were SOOOO precious in their little uniforms and their big helmets and their little legs running around the bases! adorable! afterward, we hid del pueblo for some lunch and margaritas. Jericia and i then went to pick out bridesmaid dresses and go shoe shopping. then…margaritas! Brett met up with us and we somehow ended up at del pueblo for…think real hard….margaritas! we talked about going back to Brett’s house, getting cleaned up, and going out to some clubs, but once we reached the house we were spent! but what better a way to spend cinco de mayo??? a lazy morning was followed by a leisurely lunch and it was time for me to go. it is a truly wonderful thing to have friends who you can go nearly three years without seeing…and when you do…it’s like you were just there yesterday. i am so lucky! alas, the trip to atlanta to which i referred in the last entry never happened...too much drama and stress at that moment in time, but i'll get up there at some point! it's not so very far away. but the reference to europe which, at the time i last wrote, was purely theoretical actually came to fruition! my dear friend Lt. Dan who is currently stationed in iraq was scheduled to have his R&R leave in may. he, somehow (hmm....) didn't relish the idea of spending it back in wisconsin with his family, but thought he'd rather travel around europe and see the sights. in his words, he thought of all his friends and said to himself, "who would be the most fun to travel with - and who would appreciate this the most?" once again, I WIN!!!!! on may 10 i flew to munich where i was greeted my Dan and our friend Mike Lanfor, with whom i had worked at the skydiving school at the ranch in new york in years past. he and his wife now live in neuhaus am pegnitz, a lovely little town in the hills north of nurnberg. Mikey and Mary have a GORGEOUS upstairs apartment, all wood with a lodgey feel, spiral staircase up to the sauna and the ubershower, with a perfect view of the castle and the brewery! what more can you ask for? we visited the castle, wandered the grounds, frolicked on the playground (you knew that all castles have playgrounds, right?), and had a fantastic dinner of stadtwurst and local beer. the next day we journeyed through the fields of hops to garmisch, a glorious mountain town in the Bavarian alps. Dan and i had a perfect view of the zugspitze – the highest mountain in germany – from our balcony. the beauty of this place literally took my breath away. we met up with some friends of Mikey’s and went hiking through the partnach gorge. we twisted and turned through sheer rocky walls while the water gushed ice cold far below our path. somehow we ended up on top of a mountain where god – or some other divine being – put a restaurant with magnificent beer and a stellar view of the valley below us. rain spattered upon our heads on the hike back down, but it could not squelch my spirit…i finally felt a sense of home for the first time in a year. we returned to the lodge where i devoured wienerschnitzel, beer, and apfelstrudel for dinner. with full bellies and smiling faces, we all turned in for the night. the next morning Dan and i spent not nearly enough time drinking coffee on the balcony, just taking in the phenomenal view and breathing in the peace. we met up with the gang – and picked up two more, friend’s of Dan’s who live in germany – and had breakfast. Mikey and his contingent went out for a bike ride while Dan and I paired up with Tony and Madeline. we made a brief stop in the town center of garmisch where they were celebrating their fruhlingsfest. we all took turns trying on lederhosen and dirndl; then Dan and i took delight in the fact that there was an authentic polka band playing in the square (yes. we danced in the street) AND a beer stand right nearby. we drove out to the base of the mountains where we took a gondola ride up to the top of the zugspitze. clouds had been moving in and out all morning; and when we arrived, the mountaintop was cloaked in a foggy haze. we stepped inside to the restaurant for weiBwurst and beer (go figure!) and while we were sitting there the clouds all blew out, revealing the most magnificent views of snow-capped mountains and deep valleys. the wind blew frigid against our faces but i still found it necessary to go outside and dance when it began to snow J we took a very slow trainride back down the mountain and returned to the lodge for dinner and beers (do you see a pattern forming?). that night Dan and i went out on the great garmisch pub crawl. we just started down one street and decided to stop in every pub we came across for a beer. we gave written reviews of each (more like “scrawled on a piece of paper from my purse which happened to be my military pass to get into the lodge,” tried some good beers, some not so good beers, and met loads of great people. the night ended in an irish pub where irish car bombs put me completely out of commission… but what fun we had! our last day in garmisch was spent touring Neuschwanstein, the fairy tale castle of King Ludwig II. this structure is absolutely stunning, ridiculously ornate, and entirely breathtaking. during the walk back to the car, we hiked down to where an ice-cold stream settled into frigid pools…i still couldn’t help but stick my head into the water! we climbed around on the rocks like little goats until it was time to go. our last night at the lodge was spent drinking beer in the hottub and doing laundry to prepare for the next leg of our journey. the next morning Dan and i caught the train to munich. it was our plan to head straight to the hofbrauhaus, the greatest beer hall of all history in all the world and all of creation, but we were sidetracked briefly by the beautiful architecture, Mongolian street performers, and various sights in this great city. i arrived at the hofbrauhaus all giddy, and ordered my liter of dunkelbier with delight! we left the hofbrauhaus on a mission: to visit the Bavarian Filmstadt and ride the creature from “The Neverending Story.” all we were going on was one little picture in a travel brochure – no clue if the creature was actually even there – no clue if we could even touch it. but this was our mission. we arrived, paid our admission to the studios, and were told, “the tour is in german.” yeah. we didn’t really care. we toured sets and saw props from “Das Boot,” “Enemy Mine,” and… “THE NEVERENDING STORY!” we entered the room and saw the creature there in all its glory, all soft and white and calling to us. the tour guide was babbling on in german – i caught a few words here and there – and heard her say, “Sie konnen..something something…setzen” i knew enough to know she told us we could sit on it. me? i have no shame. i was all over that thing!!! WHEEEEEE!!!!! our work here was complete. we walked back toward the hofbrauhaus, stopping for pizza and beer in what appeared to me munich’s version of little italy – where the menu was in german but the clientele all spoke Italian. i was having language wars in my brain! we watched boys in wetsuits surf on the canal before returning to the hofbrauhaus where many more liter beers were consumed and i got to conduct the band! we somehow met up with a group of people from minnesota (?) who were heading out to an irish pub (should’ve learned my lesson in garmisch). after they bought us those shots of Jamison i was totally wrecked and poor Dan practically had to drag me to the train to get to the airport to catch our flight to athens! we arrived in Athens the next morning hung over, hot, achy, and tired (i know, nobody’s fault but my own!). Dan managed to find the most fantastic hotel in the entire city. the Fresh Hotel is ultra-modern, all stark white with low couches and funky floral arrangements, and big splashes of orange, fuschia, and bright blue all over – not to mention the greatest shower i’ve ever had the pleasure of standing in. the rooftop of this hotel is known as the “open air lounge” – futons are scattered about and covered in big poofy pillows. techno music is piped in and the energy is very chill and relaxed. we spent many hours up here drinking bottle after bottle of wine, staring at the stars and gazing at the acropolis glowing on the horizon. we did spend our one full day in athens wandering the city and visiting all the great ruins and monuments: the library and arch of hadrian, roman and ancient agora, the acropolis, the olympic stadium, the temple of olympian zeus – it is mind-boggling to see these places – and to think that these ruins still remain as testament to what occurred here so very very long ago. that, and there were a lot of stones. we flew back from athens to munich and promptly got into a rental car and drove to bamburg where Dan’s friend Tony lives. we spent the night here, where we were able to get laundry done and where we knew we had a good place to stay. the next day we crossed the border into the czech republic and into Prague. i had no idea the wonders that exist in this city. around every corner is a new feast for the eyes – architectural wonders, ornate trims on the buildings, frescos on random walls, towering church steeples and domes… i was seriously flabbergasted on multiple occasions. we spent the night in a quaint and almost sketchy hostel where the girl at the front desk spoke virtually no english – but they DID have a beer vending machine in the common area so you know it wasn’t all bad! we did more wandering the following day, past synagogues and museums, opera houses and theatres, across bridges and up and down hills. my camera was going non-stop! as we drove back to bamburg, we stopped in the town of plzen where Pilsner Urquell beer is brewed. we found a little corner pub/restaurant where we stopped for dinner. our server, a jovial burly fellow, came to our table and babbled something in czech. we looked at him blankly and asked, “english?” to which he simply laughed. we then tried, “beer?” and his face lit up, “ja ja! bier!!” at least we had that base covered! he then brought us menus which were entirely in czech. we just laughed and i was entirely prepared to just point to something and see what i’d get. he took pity on us and brought us menus in german; i could at least decipher two thirds of that! the food was spectacular and the beer was cold and delicious. he would come back to our table from time to time to check on us…he’d babble something in czech and laugh. we’d smile and say, “ja! alles gut!” that night found us back in bamburg where i organized my bags and got to watch the mets beat the Yankees on tv! GO METS!!! the next day i was back in florida, wishing i was still in germany. my life continues and i look forward to things to come. i have been reconnecting with some of my theatre friends in orlando that i’d been neglecting whilst trying to get settled up here in deland. i have been taking some time away from the world of auditions and performing – but will be looking back in that direction before the summer is over. i made some great skydives this memorial day weekend with some wonderful people. i still love my job at Sky Systems and still am doing heaps of modeling work in orlando. i look forward to going back to houston for Jericia and Brett’s wedding – and now i get to look forward to going to ALASKA! my older sister, Becky, lives just north of anchorage with her family. i first entertained the notion that i’d like to visit alaska in high school. now, 47 states and 20ish countries later, i have made plans to go over labor day weekend. i dare say i’m overdue. more hiking in the mountains!!! yes yes yes!!! the days between now and then will be spent working a lot to get ahead, and playing a lot to balance out the working! i need to somehow hit a baseball park this summer – even if it’s minor league. i’m sure the beach will find me on more than one occasion. safely assume i’ll be falling and soaring through the sky repeatedly with a ridiculous grin on my face. i’ll keep fingers crossed that the hurricane season is as mild as it was last year. i look forward to hearing from each of you to know what is happening in your world. i send you the glory of the alps and the majesty of the acropolis, the simplicity of the lilacs and the grandeur of ancient gothic cathedrals. peace in your hearts and minds. and always love. spiral out...keep going... amy
March 25 lo these many monthsi can't believe how fast the time flies!...and how amazingly crazy this life is!
christmas was awkward only in theory - in reality, spending the holiday with my ex-boyfriend's family,-whom i had never met before- was a truly wonderful experience. they were all extraordinarily welcoming, generous, fun, and caring. as is typical in my world, christmas was filled with lots of good food, lots of good drink, gifts, laughter, and an all-day marathon of "a christmas story". well, maybe the marathon isn't so typical in my world, but the rest of it was thoroughly enjoyable.
speaking of thoroughly enjoyable, i practically immediately followed up that journey with a drive out to zephyrhills for new years. it was part work/mostly play...i was there representing Sky Systems: demoing helmets, answering questions, washing visors...and when that wasn't happening i was reconnecting with friends whom i see far too rarely, falling out of planes and helicopters, and doing some crazy partying! WHEEEEE!!!!! the party on new years eve left nothing to be desired: we wandered around the dropzone from the fire to the dancing people by the band to the rave in the bunker...the beer line burned in flames while fireworks lit up the sky. i had my good friends all around me and fell asleep with a smile on my face.
the weeks that followed consist mainly of working, but somewhere in there was the hot tub party with all the red wine, a weekend at Sebastian watching swoopers on the beach, meeting awesome skydiver people, and trading clothes (???); a day at flagler beach where some of the greatest skydivers in the world carved their canopies across the beach, fire and beer were to follow, and a night of insanity which proved to be one of my favorite nights of my life (no, i won't give details here
my sister, Jo, came to visit from minneapolis for a fantastic weekend. we enjoyed fruity drinks that made us sleepy too early in the evening, a day at new smyrna beach followed by an amazing seafood dinner at the wharf where pelicans abounded and the sun shone warm on our faces, the Scottish Highland Festival and Games where we decided not to try the haggis, but got to watch actual sheaf hurling (BAAAAAA!!!!) and the caber toss. as we left the park that day she said, "i wish we were on the beach again" and i said, "ok...let's go to the beach!" this time it was cocoa which is quite a bit more commercial and touristy than new smyrna, but the scrabble board made its fifth-or-so appearance and the ocean lapped warm on our bare feet. this beach excursion was followed by another amazing seafood dinner at crab heaven - "where crabs go to die." we tore crab legs open with our hands which ended up coated in drawn butter - cold beer washed everything down and we were HAPPY!!!!
somewhere around the time of her visit, i had decided to leave orlando and go live in a tent. those of you who are skydivers understand this, those of you who do not - it goes something like this: for the past three years of my life, i've lived on or within a mile of a drop zone. i've been closer to nature and have grown accustomed to being able to find trees and wilderness and lose myself in them without having to plan a day trip to do so. when i moved to orlando, i discovered a lovely theatre and arts community, i sought out coffee houses and cafes that have personality and quirkiness which i adore. i thought that i might be happy there, after all. but especially after "miracle on 34th street" closed and i had had very few opportunities to get away and skydive and be with that family of people i have grown to love, i realized that it is critical that i have more of that lifestyle to satisfy my soul and spirit. i began looking online for apartments and rooms for rent in the area around deland, but became impatient very quickly and realized that if i didn't give my roommate notice that i was leaving, i'd be spending another month's rent to live somewhere i didn't want to be. thus, the tent on the dropzone idea entered my mind and became more and more appealing as i contemplated it. i wasn't going to do this half-assed, either. i bought a 10'x14' tent, set up my king-sized bed in there, and started getting everything organized. i hadn't even gotten everything moved in the way i wanted it when the tornados came through. i had heard that storms were expected that night, but i wasn't too stressed about it. i heard the rain come and go, the thunder crashed and lightning flashed, but my tent was standing fine...until 4am. the wind came rushing so hard and the rain gushed down. i looked up and saw one side of my tent about to collapse, so i stood up with my back against it to try to hold it up. many times in florida, these gales come through and pass in two minutes; this is what i was hoping for. unfortunately, this was not the case. as hard as i tried to hold my tent up, the winds were so strong that the corners started to come up. water began pouring in and when everything inside was drenched and the storm hadn't let up at all, i realized i had lost this battle. i grabbed my phone, my lantern, a towel (which was already wet....i don't know what i was thinking) and ran to my car where i spent the rest of the night. i awoke to find my tent only partially collapsed, but every item inside was completely soaked. i was still unaware of the horrors that had actually occurred that night, so when i saw the news footage of peoples homes which had been completely leveled, trees torn from the ground, and that 14 people had died, i realized how damn lucky i really am. to further affirm that realization, my bosses at Sky Systems opened their homes to me, letting me wash and dry everything, store what i needed to, and sleep in a warm dry place until i could get everything sorted out. thank you Yvonne, Doug, and Carey!
call me crazy, but i decided to put the tent back up. but this time i found a little clearing back in the trees - fan palms and spanish moss surround me, vines hang down from the trees, and i wake to bird calls twittering all about me. the trees give me shelter from the wind, and i was wise enough this time to put up a tarp to further protect me from the elements. i have a futon to sleep on, shelves and tables set up, area rugs on the floor, and now...a cat. in a tent. yes. last weekend i was having dinner with Burke and his friend Stacy in orlando. As we walked out to the truck, a little kitten ran across the parking lot. Burke went over to her and pet her for a bit, then as he turned back to thte truck, she followed him. when he opened the door, she jumped inside. she showed no sign of belonging to anyone, and none of us had the heart to just leave her behind. as it is, Burke is leaving for military training for nine weeks, and obviously can't take a cat. Stacy has a giant dog that would eat a little kitten in two bites. that left me...and my tent. i love cats, i grew up with cats, and i am now very happy to have my little girl. i named her Katana and she is sweet and well behaved. she cuddles with me and purrs very loudly. so it is no longer just Hundley the stuffed lion and me; we have a new partner in crime
my living situation will be changing very soon, anyway. at skydive deland there is a little RV park off to the side. there is a skydiver who has a very nice RV there who plans to go back up north for the summer. he plans to leave his RV here while he is away and i suggested that perhaps it might be good to have someone stay in it while he's gone, to watch it and make sure everything is safe for the summer. go figure, he agreed and i should be moving in within two weeks. my housing situation for the next several months is sorted out and i have that much more time to attempt to figure out what i plan to do after that. if you know me at all, you know i haven't a clue! what will i be doing by next fall???? your guess is as good as mine!
for now, i'll stick with what i have here: good jobs and good friends. the people here are not ranch hands, this is for sure, but i've found a good group of people who look out for each other and love to have a good time! i'll be in atlanta at the end of the month for the good vibes boogie and the anberlin concert with Nicole (YAYYYAYAYYYAYYYYY!!!!!!) but that's about all i can tell you as far as the near future is concerned. i'm sure i will end up in new york at some point this year, texas for sure, hopefully to alaska, and somebody somewhere has been talking of europe.
i hope that this year has been treating all of you spendidly, that you are safe and warm and happy, and that you are all surrounded by the love that you deserve.
spiral out...keep going...
February 21 i'm not deadbut for as much as i've been writing here i may as well be! then, again, i very well could have been when those tornados came through! *whew*
give me another week and i'll be back. you know how my life works...
spiral out...keep going... December 22 never enough timei'll try to make this brief as i know the more i write the more i'll want to write...and then there will be the matter of putting up all the pictures - which WILL happen, but i have a bit of a drive to make tomorrow, so i'll just give you the skeletal outline:
Miracle was an absolutely fabulous experience. we closed last tuesday and i already miss the cast.
thanksgiving was spent skydiving and enjoying the company of my dear friends...as well as new ones.
the Sky Systems holiday party had the most imbalanced bottles of booze to person ratio i think i've ever seen (good times!)
i am driving to mississippi tomorrow to spend christmas with Burke and his family. no, we aren't back together. yes, it is a little weird, but i try not to think about it or it just gets weirder. suffice it to say i decided it wasn't the most frugal decision to fly back home, and upon hearing that i wouldn't be with my family, he offered me the option of spending the holiday with his. i'm certain it will be a very interesting experience and i'll let you know how that goes when i'm back.
upon my return, i get to see some of my favoritest skydiving friends who are down for the holiday festivities in zephyrhills. i'll be going there partly as a Sky Systems representative, partly as a skydiver, partly as a social butterfly, and always as one who enjoys the fantastic energy of that place!
more later, but for now, a most joyous christmas to you all and a new year filled with all that is fantastic and fulfilling. love.
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amy October 09 she lives!!!i can't believe this much time has gone by and not a word here from me! every week has been jam packed and has flown by so quickly...i don't even know where september went and we're almost halfway through october!
my trip back to new york was spectacular!!!! when i arrived back in gardiner, the fantastic beauty of the whole area flooded my heart and brain and i actually started to cry. "i love this place so much!!! what am i doing in florida???" were the thoughts that went through my mind. i then proceeded to head directly to the bar to meet up with dearest friends and swill dearest beer
oddly enough, by the time i left, and once i was back in florida again, i had a new appreciation for where i now am - both geographically and within my own personal journey. true: i LOVE everything and everyone i know in the hudson river valley, and everything i had there artistically and employmentally is still there for me...but i feel that to move back now would be to take a step backwards. i have begun a new leg of this amazing journey here in florida and i am TRULY HAPPY to be here! i miss my friends, i miss the gunks, i miss the ranch, but i am part of something here that i didn't have when i lived there. this artistic and theatrical community is just starting to open up to me. i am meeting absolutely wonderful people and making beautiful friends. i feel in my heart and soul that it is important for me to be right here, right now. i don't see myself growing old and dying here...but i have a lot of exploring yet to do and a lot of jumping in and being here - not just being HERE...but BEING here (know what i mean???)...to do before i am ready to say farewell to the sunshine state.
so upon my return i immediately started rehearsals for The Pirates of Penzance. i originally was told that i would be playing Isabel, but later found that i was contracted to play Kate - which is technically the same role i did when i did this show with Virginia Opera, but that show was an entity all unto itself...and the parts of the three sisters in this production have been divided up so that i have more singing to do than Kate is actually scored to sing (whee!!!!!). i spent my birthday in a full day of musical rehearsals - filling me with joy and joyness - to spend my birthday singing! and had a guinness and laughter filled dinner with a sweet friend. off to sleepy sleepy to rest up for more rehearsals! the show opened on the 22nd of september, and though we've had somewhat small audiences, they've generally been very responsive - LOTS of laughter and smiles!!! i know that i am having a most grand time - bouncing about on stage in my pink floofy dress and long blonde pigtails. the cast is wonderful - both as performers and as individuals off-stage. we spend friday and saturday post-show evenings in the theatre lobby - where the bar and the grand piano are located - sip cocktails and gather round the piano, taking turns singing the songs we always wanted to perform... and perhaps have somewhere along the line...or perhaps will never have a chance to... there have been cast barbecues and cast parties and people running off to see shows or attend dance classes or go to Universal Studios for the day... we are so lucky to be surrounded by such fun and good good good people!
whilst performing six shows a week, i continue my job at Sky Systems. to give up this job would be like leaving a family. i am doing more and more modeling for area art centers and schools. i'm to the point now where my schedule is so crazy, i'm having to turn work down (apparently, everything is back to normal for my life!
my parents came down the last weekend of september to visit and see my show. it was SOOOOOO wonderful to have them here! my father has wanted to take a hot air balloon ride for years and years, so when he heard that i had made a balloon jump, he and my mother knew that that opportunity existed for them down here. so let's make it happen!!! 6am saturday morning we met Bob (of Bob's balloons, of course) and traveled out to a somewhat rural grassy pasture field where the morning air was cool on our bare arms, the grass was damp with dew, and the sky began to glow with yellow-grey of dawn. we weren't the only balloon company who decided that field was a good place to take off, so soon colorful balloons began to grow and rise all about us, their rainbow colours floated up into the sky and were carried off into the distant morning air. we climbed into the balloon: my mother, father, the pilot, Bob, and myself, and began our ascent. the world is silent and peaceful whilst hovering above the earth in a balloon, until the burner kicks in and the heat of flame breaks the coolness of the morning air. once we reached 5000 feet, Bob and i took a look down at the patchwork patterns of the ground, found a nice big green spot, and climbed out onto the edge of the basket. straddling it, facing each other, goofy smiles plastered on our faces, we grabbed hands, swayed out - in - out - and just fell. yes. we were wearing our skydiving rigs. i'm a little crazy, but not suicidal. the air is so still and quiet under a balloon...nothing like an airplane. it's like falling in a dream. surreal. until you start to pick up speed and hear the air against your ears start to whoosh! then track off and dump...and fly fly fly soar like a bird and breathe and laugh and laugh and laugh!!!! i think i was giddy until about 2pm. my parents LOVED the balloon ride and as soon as they had landed, my father was ready to go up again (is that where i get it from???).
i had to run off and do my show, later met up with my parents to walk up and down orlando's park avenue - no, it's not NYC - but it is quaint and lined with boutiquey shops and classy little cafes. at the south end of the actual park in winter park is a gorgeous rose garden - in which my mother absolutley reveled, master gardener that she is! we went to mass and drove off to the theatre where i was able to join them for dinner before doing our evening performance. it had been a LONG day...so was an early evening. sunday we reconvened to weigh our options as to how to spend the day, and decided to begin by renting an air boat and exploring for alligators. we traveled up and down the leg of the creek a couple of times, and though we never saw the reptilian creatures, we did see several turtles sunning themselves on logs and stumps and various varieties of birds pecking about, taking flight, and bobbing in the water- searching for lunch. the sky was clear, the sun was warm, and the creek water mirrored the trees surrounding us, creating a brilliant picture!
we then traveled up to sanford, to the restaurant where i had my crappy waitressing job. i always said there was nothing wrong with the restaurant - and the people that work there are great - i just wasn't happy working there. so it was good to enjoy the food there again, and to reconnect with the people i hadn't seen in far too long! we followed lunch by visiting the local zoo - which was very impressive and really enjoyable! although...i found it a bit ironic that i took more pictures of the native flowers and berries than i did the animals...but that's me, you know. except for the moment that we happened to be in the reptile building during feeding time and got to witness all the snakes ingesting little dead mice. i found it utterly FASCINATING!!! i could have watched them for hours. my mother was nauseated. we left
at this point i had to return to orlando for my sunday evening performance. Al and Peg wandered the streets of college park while i sang and giggled and jumped about. we met up for one last beer and i took them back to their hotel. what a great weekend we had!
since then it's been more work model show work model show work model show. somewhere in there, i managed to make it to a call-back audition for the Orlando Repertory Theatre and get cast in their upcoming production of Miracle on 34th Street. i am SOOO excited for this. i have three small roles: Dr Pierce, Mrs Harper, and Mother #2. i'm especially excited for the role of Mother #2 -i just know this is going to catapult me to stardom
it turns out i won't be a rock star, after all, since Low Red Moon's rehearsal and performance schedule conflicts directly with my rehearsal and performance schedule, but i still intend to be their biggest groupie
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amy August 19 this sh*t should be illegalthe fact that ALL of the following events have occurred in the last THREE WEEKS of my life astounds even me.
the last weekend in july found me in sebastian. NOT sebastien my evil ex-boyfriend...but beautiful sebastian, florida, down on the coast...lovely beaches and great skydiving! my friend, Peter, from new york had let me know that he was going to be there that weekend - and as i'd heard fantastic things about the dropzone and had never been there - i had to make the trip! i drove down friday night, landed at a bar and sipped cold beers while watching the mets improve their record (my boys rock!!!). i drove back to the dropzone and found a nice quiet corner to park my car, recline the seat back, and doze off. granted, this was actually pretty miserable. for all the times i've slept in my car, |